05-31-2012 -- There was other problems as well. My son had a temper. I had twice had to call the law on him for fear of my own life. Most of the time he was very sweet. Looking back now I am thinking these were times he was on drugs. In Feb. he was in a rage. The wife called us and screamed. I told husband we needed to go now. When we got to the house she was locked in the bathroom with her two older daughters. Son had knocked her veneer off her tooth. Had grabbed her around the neck. We tried to get him to leave, he wouldn't go. He wouldn't let us get the baby. Finally when he realized the cops were on the way husband got him out of the house. The cops came interviewed the wife, the older kids and me. They left and son returned. Again tried to get him to leave. We took the wife and the kids to a motel ad left them there. A few hours later cops showed up at my home and wanted to know where she was. They went to interview her again and went back to son's house and arrested him. 8 charges. Wife went to  doctor the next day and got more meds to abuse. He had a protective order placed on him, not to be around the wife or kids. He stayed with us a week or so and then she begged him to come back. I kept telling him he was risking so much for something so little. Didn't do any good. He would find no logic in that. They thought they were smarter than the law, more clever. Exempt from the law. DFACS was already involved. Oh Lord if I had the foresight I now have in hindsight I maybe could have done something. The drug use became worse.
Some more calls from debt collectors. I gave one of them the widow's phone number.

05.29.2013 -- we took our granddaughter to the pediatric cardiologist today for a checkup. She has a slight heart murmur. She was good. But suddenly got very sleepy.

05.30.2013 -- The debt collectors are starting to call. We have had one everyday this week. Two today. My son had always paid his bills. When the drugs started taking him he stopped paying them. I know he owed American Express a buttload of money. The ring his widow wears wasn't paid for. The car payment has not been paid.

05.31.2012 -- Another debt collector just called. This one stayed on the line long enough for me to make clear tht he was deceased. I asked her to quit calling, he was not going to come back to life and I gave her the widow's number. Grand daughter did not feel good yesterday. She was fussy. She ate well and played good. Her little mouth was hurting.

05.28.2012 -- A friend called today to see how we were doing. I am doing well. I still miss my son so much that my heart just breaks. He was smart, he had so much potential. He could have done great things. Secretly, I have missed him for a while. He was gone long before his body died. On the thursday before he died he came to my house. He and his wife had a court order to stay away from the baby. He was in a rage. Going through his room looking for something. He was grabbing things that was not his. Lifting the tiles of the ceiling panels looking for the unknown. I told him that he needed to go. He shouldn't be here. He dared me to call the law. I was terrified. He wanted to see the baby, he woke her and she started crying. Go now. I grabbed her and took her into my room locking two doors behind me. They left. I told my husband that I could no longer be a part of this. I was done. I cried. I would not talk to him on the phone.  I could no longer deal with this in any manner. Out of the backseat the tiny voice of my infant grand-daughter "I'm good".

05.27.2013 -- saw today that the widow enjoyed some time at the lake this weekend. Gee, it must be nice to not have a care in the world. Here I am taking care of oneof herchildren while the paternal grandmother takes care of the other two. No worries, the merry widow.
I found some old stuffed animals that belonged to my son, yesterday. I am still looking for the cute little pink pig I bought him before he was born. I found a pink pig but it was a puppet, not the same one. I miss him so very much.

The drugs my son was taking destroyed his mind. He lost all sense of everything. He quit, actually mutual agreement, his great job. Because he could not be bothered to go to work.  He blamed it on his inability to sleep. Which was why he got one of the drugs. Xanax. It made you not care. About anything. What they planned on doing is beyond me. the house was in forclosure, two cars had been repoed. One my husband bailed out with the promise to pay him back, ha, that never happened! He gave them 1500$ only 800 was used for the car the rest was used for who knows what. The water was cut off, the widow had the cable turned back on. My husband again had to pay to have the water cut back on. I just don't understand.

05.27.2013 -- Last night one of my son's friends called to see how we are doing and to check on the grandbaby. I told him we were doing as well as can be expected. Not really. I was going through some things in grandbaby's room. I came across two pictures of my son. He was so handsome, always smiling, a happy kid. I showed one of them to granddaughter: "That's your daddy, when he was a little boy" I am so sad that she will never know him and feel the love he had for her.