06.20.2013 -- I like to pretend I am all-right and when I am occupied I m Taking care of the baby, washing dishes doing any type of house work I do pretty good. I am so exhausted by nightime I almost fall asleep instantly. But in the early hours of the morning it is not like that. Thoughts of my son enter my mind. I can't get them to leave. He is always there lingering in my mind. It is at the start of a new day. Needless to say I have a hard time going back to sleep. And thus begins a new day of exhaustion.